Monthly Archives: August 2019

The Biggest Mistake

We fear them, don’t we, these things we call mistakes? Ever wonder why we fear them though? What is actually wrong with making a mistake?

Mistakes are usually built up by society as something terrible, an awful thing to do or happen. If we make a mistake, there’s nearly always somebody on standby to ridicule us for it. Somebody to point out that we are wrong or berate us for not getting something right.

All too often we second guess ourselves, for fear of making a mistake. Or we may avoid trying something new, just in case we make that dreaded mistake.

But if we stopped to think about it, what happens when we make a mistake? What does it actually mean? Well, what if I told you that a mistake is just another step on the road to getting it right. That sometimes mistakes are necessary. And that most of the time they are our best teacher.

Would it change your mindset if you knew that everyone makes mistakes? Would it make you feel better to believe that mistakes are quite common, especially when we start or try something new?

Perhaps we need to be kinder to ourselves, and accept our mistakes for the lessons that they are.

Because not learning from our mistakes is probably the greatest mistake of all.

Too Busy To Live

You know the feeling. The ‘to-do’ list is never ending. The time is ticking away faster than you can blink. All around you life is changing rapidly – children are growing, parents are ageing. It’s hard to catch your breath at times.

You pack so much into your day. Caught up in the modern way of being busy all the time – it’s almost expected to be very busy these days. You don’t know what to do with yourself if you have a rare day off. In fact, you feel guilty at the thought of such a thing.

While you are so busy doing everything you can, your children are growing up. You will never have these days back. 18 years at most – how many of those years are gone? And just as importantly, how many have you left? Are you sure you want to spend their remaining childhood flat out on other things, instead of enjoying the brief spell that is their childhood?

As you work your way through your to-do list, you cannot fit in time for a cuppa or phone-call with your parent(s)….not realising that one day they will no longer be there to boil the kettle, or answer the phone. It’s not a reality anyone wants to face…but it is also one that cannot be avoided. Memories of shared moments will be so much nicer than memories of missed calls or visits.

We get so caught up in our modern busy worlds that we seem to have forgotten some of the really important stuff. Nothing can replace time spent with family or friends. No job or chore should take their place. No-one should be too busy to live.

But – and here’s the important bit – what if sometimes doing nothing but observing and enjoying life was okay?

Guess what – it is…..

The end of the school summer holidays seemed to come around too quickly for you this year. As the days gradually turn cooler and shorter, the school doors begin to open once more. It is an event that you have waited on with a mixture of emotions.


Year on year, you’ve watched other parents wave their pride and joy off to school. You have witnessed the highs and lows, the pride and the sorrow, the tears and the smiles. All from afar.


But this year, it is your turn ….to wave goodbye….


You stand at the gates, or maybe even the classroom door, and watch your pride and joy take a step forward into the big world. Without you. And you are overcome with pride.


But the pride is equaled, and possibly even overwhelmed, by a sense of loss, a slow creeping realisation that those precious days of pre-school, those days of togetherness and freedom, are gone forever. A hard truth you did not want to face just yet.


And you are sad. Understandably, achingly sad.


Letting go is hard.

The Dark Ages of Modern Times

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We thought it was all in the past. Antiquated services, long waiting lists, cut back after cutback (for the ordinary and the vulnerable in our society, not the elite). Homelessness, evictions, job losses, poor wages. It could be an overview of a dark history.

Alas no, it is not about the past, it is about the present. Modern day Ireland….2019.

Where a child requiring psychological assessment is told to wait 42 months for an appointment. And this in an era of mental health awareness?

Where you can’t risk a heart attack in the south east out of business hours as there is no out-of-hours cardiac services.

Where three year hospital waiting lists are the norm.

Where people are financially better off on the dole than actually working.

Where families live in hotel rooms because the banks repossessed their home which now lies empty.

As a nation we are most definitely going backwards. Nursing graduates get offered work overseas, while our HSE does not offer employment despite a serious shortage of nurses. Hospital wards remain closed. Many medical posts remain unfilled. Services try to fill the shortfall with agency staff which bleeds the budget. But a recruitment embargo persists.

A national children’s hospital is being built in Dublin city centre – like that is going to be easy to get to – despite more suitable locations off the accessible M50….and the budget has over-run by millions.

Our national cervical screening programme has failed thousands of women. False results, inaccuracies. Deaths.

Shame on our system.

€60 million on a public service card that breaches data protection. €54 million on the never used electronic voting machines, subsequently scrapped for €9 each. The list could go on and on but you get the gist.

Child care fees cost more than a mortgage. House prices are way beyond the average wage. Our pensioners get a €5 weekly increase in their pension but have to wait 6 months for this. The rehabilitative training allowance (€31.80) is stopped causing serious financial hardship or even the end of training for those who rely on it.

The rich get richer and the poor get poorer and the social gap continues to widen. Those in power appear to be so far removed from the ordinary everyday lives of the people they are supposed to be representing.

The mind boggles.

And I’m sure George Orwell would be immensely proud of this live action version of ‘Animal Farm’ – such a shame it is real life though.

Just Getting Old…

This is it, this is how it ends. The journey into certain old age has surely begun.

Not only do the knees protest loudly with each step, the eyesight is starting to fail miserably, and the hearing isn’t exactly up to scratch either. Nature now provides natural high-lights, and fun games are all the rage now – the favourite apparently is ‘guess what you came into this room for’.

Back in the day a good looking young lad could raise the blood pressure…..and while they still might, its more due to the fear that will they be blaring music all night. Young ones wear far too much make up and skirts were never that short – were they? Turn down that music and put some clothes on will ya!!

Go out at 11? Are you mad – sure that’s bed time! And you’re now getting up to avail of the facilities at the time you used to be getting home at. You can’t listen to live bands in a pub – sure that’s mostly noise these days anyway. And on the occasions where you are not too tired to venture out, you need about a week to recover….and that’s from the quite nights!!

There’s a whole new language as well and you don’t mind admitting that you are a bit lost with it all – things are no longer ‘cool’, they’re ‘sick’ and now ‘dope’ means ‘cool’ – huh???? Do us old fogies need to go back to school and learn this new language???

Back in the day your favourite seat was usually in the local – these days it’s the recliner in your sitting room. You can’t pass a bathroom – that would be a waste of a good opportunity. People no longer try to guess your age – you are now the subject of respect rather than a slagging off. People apologise when they swear in your company and young (very young – are they even old enough to work??) sales assistants call you ma’am or sir….You can’t tell the difference between a leaving cert student and a teacher anymore, you swear that doctor is only 12 and that guard is just playing dress up!

For the most part you feel you are getting older and wider instead of older and wiser. There was a time you could dance the night away, not a bother to you….these days you can’t do a 2 mile walk without requiring a chiropractor.

Ah yes, this getting old lark is a hard one to figure out…..but isn’t it a privilege denied to many….and while we may have to grow old, we certainly don’t have to grow up now do we????

The Fight

….I would not change you for the world….but I would change the world for you…..

You never expected this. You never asked for this. You never wanted this.

You never thought that every day would be such a struggle. That every day would be a mixture of pride, love, anger, fear, sadness and frustration. Never in a million years did you think that the basics would be a fight, and the seemingly smallest of things be a major milestone. You never foresaw any of this, never imagined that life could be so hard.

Most days see you worn out by the time the morning school run is over. And then you have to face the ‘system’, battle your way through the myriad of red tape to access vital services, a system that is about as friendly as a shark at feeding time.

You are overcome with guilt on a regular basis. Why you? Why your child? You done everything right – ate what you were supposed to eat, avoided what you were supposed to avoid. And still, here you are, struggling and battling every day just to survive. It is your child who gets left out, your child that people do not understand. It is you who has to fight for everything – a school place, a speech and language appointment, support aids….the list is endless. And you are tired.

You lie awake at night, your mind ravaged by nightmares worse than any experienced under the cover of sleep. You cannot concentrate on things during the day because the anxiety you feel is so high. Constantly wondering and worrying about what is next – what will be the next hurdle, and will you get through it?

It is not fair. It is not right. All children are equal. But somehow it seems your child is less equal than others. It enrages you. It hurts you. It worries you. No-body sees your tears because you have become so good at hiding them. No-body really wants to walk in your shoes.

Day in day out, the struggle continues, a constant battle to live in a world which seems set on making the most simple things impossible. Day in day out, the way forward is paved with obstacles which always seem insurmountable, and the never ending fight continues.

Day in day out you wish for the day when there is no more struggle, when the negative and pessimistic attitudes are no more, when waiting lists are a thing of the past, when the system works with people rather than against them.

And until that day comes, you will never stop your fight. Because you are a highly trained fighter, with years of experience. Your motivation cannot be dampened. Your determination knows no limits. And the word ‘quit’ is not in your vocabulary.

Nothing will stop a parents fight for their child. Nothing.

Old Friend

Location doesn’t matter. Time has no bearing. The friendship is as easy as it is long. There is no need for constant calls and reassurances. Your presence is felt, the miles dilute nothing.

Through the years, the many trials and tribulations of life may have taken their toll physically, maybe even emotionally, but the bond of friendship is unscathed. Unbreakable.

Through good and bad, through thick and thin. Births, deaths and marriages. New jobs, old loves, new houses. Promotions, redundancy, empty nest syndrome. The old friend has been there through it all. And is still there, waiting in the shadows.

Though the energy and excitement of the 20-somethings, the more mature and settled forty-somethings, the devil-may-care-lets-finish-this-in-style 70-somethings. The old friend always nearby, ready to slot in whatever the mood, whatever the stage.

The old friend, may you know them, may you have them, may you be them…..

The Old School House

Silent it stands, its grey walls and white quoins holding their own against the years of weathering. The windows closed, the door firmly locked to the outside world. The tarmac playground overrun by moss, the grass play area a haven of weeds and brambles. The bike shed no more to be seen.

Inside the two classrooms carry the remnants of their former schooldays. Tables and chairs stacked to the sides. The old blackboard in the corner of each room. The nature table, once laden with the offerings from the local hedge-grows, and the odd seaside shells, stands barren and untouched.

The teachers table still stands dominantly in the most prominent place in the room. The old stove, both a curse and a saviour of many a winter morning, stands cold now.

The old school house saw hundreds of children pass through its rooms. Often two, maybe even three or more generations of families sharing tales of their days in this old school house. You would be forgiven for thinking it holds fond memories for everyone who served their time as students within the walls of this old school house.

Any school house should be a place of joy and wonder, of learning about yourself as much as learning from your books. And for many, the old school house was just that – a place of nurturing, and wonderment, a place where the child was encouraged and nurtured; a place where the child was moulded into a scholar, a young adult, a kind individual taught to care for others as well as for themselves.

But unfortunately for too many children, the old school house was none of the above. It was a place of nightmares, of endless grief and suffering. Some would even call it abuse – physical and emotional abuse inflicted by one who should have known better, but somehow did not. Instead of being a place that nurtured and encouraged, the old school house was a place that degraded and belittled. A place that did not see the value in every childs contribution.

A place that only valued the academically gifted – the scholar. If you were not one of these children, if reading was difficult, or Irish was a chore, or if Maths was nigh on impossible, then instead of guidance and support, you were shouted at; instead of encouragement and praise, you were belittled; instead of being brought forward, you were left behind.

The door of the school house may be locked for many years now, with its many secrets buried in the thick walls. But the secrets are not really secrets are they – how can they be secrets if everyone knows about them?

Dear New Parent

That could have been you in the supermarket today. Wandering from aisle to aisle, almost absent mindedly placing items in the trolley. Your little one sleeping soundly in the baby seat, the picture of contentment; you, on the other, looked the complete opposite – your face pale and drawn, your eyes a poster for sleep deprivation. What you probably don’t realise is that almost every new parent looks like this at some point – and do you know what – no-one thinks any less of you for it.

As you came nearer, the sense of anxiety from you was palpable. Selecting a packet of ham seemed such an insurmountable task to you; the choice of cheese overwhelming; and it seemed the selection of bread was likely to tip you over the edge completely.

And yet, your baby slept on, blissfully unaware of what you possibly perceived to be a major catastrophe.

What fears and anxieties circle your mind? What worries and troubles you so much? Do you fear for your little ones future? Do you fear for the world your little one will grow up in? Are you catapulted years into the future when leaving cert points, college fees, first jobs, will all bear down on your little family?

Or, like most new parents, are you in the here and now, constantly second guessing yourself? Wondering and worrying about everything that you do, fearful that you are doing it all wrong? (Please believe that you are not doing it wrong….you are following your lead and doing what your family need you to do).

Are you anxious that you cuddled your baby for too long and now they are spoiled? (FYI, you cannot cuddle your baby for too long – when your child cries, they need you, so you are right to cuddle them. And besides, they grow way too fast – cuddle them while you can….)

Or are you caught up in the breast or bottle debate, embarrassed by your choice? Well, as long as you are feeding your baby, then you’re doing okay…and so is your baby for that matter!

Maybe you are feeling the pressure to get your new baby into a routine where they eat, sleep and poop at a set time in a recommended pattern? No point in asking me what that pattern or routine might be though – I never did care for those – babies are humans, not machines, they should not be programmed; their bodies will do what they need them to when they need them to – no point in stressing about routines in these early days, spend your time getting to know your baby instead.

Or maybe there’s a well meaning – but seriously mis-guided – relative fueling your insecurities by telling you how things were done so much better in her day. Well news flash Ms Judgey, it’s not your day anymore so move over! Her day is gone my dear, this is your day, your time, so please have the confidence to do it your way.

Maybe your brain is addled by all the little nuggets of wisdom passed to you by those well meaning mums……but please bear in mind that while all those gems may have worked for others, they may not necessarily work for you or your little one – and that is okay too!

Perhaps you just feel overwhelmed by it all. Being a new parent is hard. Some days it is really hard. This tiny little person is relying on you for everything – and you are providing it – you are responsible for this little persons survival – and you are ensuring it…..let that sink in……you are doing this…..you are parenting…..

You have brought this little person into the world, and you are the world to this little person – and it is okay to be overwhelmed by that. Feel it. Own it. Accept it. And just keep doing what you are doing.

To the tired, anxious, nervous new parent – trust your gut, follow your instinct, and believe in yourself…..you got this!

The Cottage

Its grey exterior, damp and cold, uninviting. A stark contrast to its exterior of old with its whitewashed walls adorned by rambling roses; a physical welcome, enticing passers by to stop and rest a while.

A monument to a simpler time. Bereft of modern conveniences – no electricity, no running water, no sanitary services – the cottage was, and is, simplicity in the extreme. Just 3 simple rooms. An out-house to the rear. A paddock for the work horse. A haggart for the vegetables. All that was needed for a simple life.

The cottage walls are no doubt steeped in the history of a family long gone. If only they could talk, what stories they could tell. Tales of simple pleasures, of innocent times.

Through the passing years, and the lure of modern comforts, the cottage has faded in favour. No longer the hub of weekday dinners, or Sunday lunches; no longer the place of summer holidays or Christmas get togethers; and never again the host venue of wakes or anniversaries.

And now, silent the cottage stands. No more visitors cross the threshold; no fires dance in the hearth; no kettle sings to signal the tea. Scattered scraps of paper and remnants of broken crockery adorn the floor. An old broken chair lies against the mildewed wall. A few damp embers sit at the edge of the hearth. Physical reminders of the life that once lived here. Slowly fading, slowly disintegrating. Just like the cottage.

But forever these will last, these childhood memories of the cottage. Affectionately, and forever, known simply as ‘Uncle Mikes’.